Update

Today marks one month since I've been experiencing back pain. I wish I could say that I am 100% better but the truth is that I'm about 20% better. Since my last post I have seen my primary care Dr who sent me home with steroids, muscle relaxers, norcos (pain pails), and a referral to a back specialist.

Upon meeting with my back specialist she recommended I give physical therapy a shot. She also advised me to stop going to the chiropractor because she feels they cannot fix what I have. It is suspected that I have a herniated disk that is effecting the sciatic nerve. Once the sciatic nerve is involved it inflicts pain through out the entire leg, also causing numbness to a certain degree. I am currently experiencing all of these symptoms.

Being that this has been going on for a month you can imagine my frustration with not being able to do things at full capacity. I still struggle with standing for more than a few minutes at a time, and I still can't walk far distances. It's a helpless feeling for an independent person like myself to know that I can't do everything I could before. My mother as amazing as she is, recently came to my apartment to clean and wash my clothes while I sat on the couch working on my laptop because I couldn't do any of it. Her being there to help me is of course a huge blessing, but it's also frustrating.

Emotionally-- I am better. Well, I don't know if it's better, I think if anything its turned from being emotionally teary, to emotionally angry. My patience is limited and my temper fuse is shorter. Is my pain a reason to lose my cool? No. I would say that it should extend grace when I don't respond in a manner that I should. But I also know that regardless of how I'm physically feeling it shouldn't dictate how I act and treat others. A work in progress.

If you read this, please be praying for God's healing power over me. I know that surgery is my last resort, but it's looking more and more like something that I need to consider.

B.