1.30.2010

Random Association











You ever have random things remind you of things? Like a certian smell reminds you of elementary school or a certain song reminds you of a high school dance. Trail mix reminds me of being in a boat in Africa on Lake Victoria. Yup, random.

I would LOVE to be there right now. I need to figure out how to teleport!

1.23.2010

"To Save a Life"

Last night my Jr. Leaders and I went to check out this movie “To Save a Life”. I had literally seen zero previews for it, I had only read the synopsis the day before. I was expecting a super cheesy Christian movie with bad acting and a bad script. I was blown away by how accurate the movie was. Yes, it was cheesy but it had such a great message.

The movie is based around two boys who grow up being best friends their entire lives. Freshman year of High School rolls around and one of the boys becomes popular through playing basketball and leaves the other friend behind. Long story short the boy who got left behind ends up taking his life during school because he felt he had no one. (Enter me crying the first time during the movie).

After the suicide the friend who had left him behind starts to feel guilty that he never reached out to him because it wasn’t the “cool” thing to do. He ends up realizing that there are others like his friend that need to feel God’s unconditional love. I could go on and on about the movie but I don’t want to give it all away.

I will say that the movie touched on teen pregnancy, suicide, cutting, hypocrisy in the church, drinking, divorced families the list goes on. I really felt like it was an accurate picture of what teens go through and how so many of them feel like there is nothing left in this world. I probably cried through the whole movie. Not because the acting was Oscar worthy, but because it’s REAL.

Biggest message is to LOVE people regardless of their social status, race, sexuality WHATEVER. Jesus didn’t call us to love conditionally He said love UNconditionally! It breaks my heart to see kids that don’t get loved on because some other kid thinks their too good. I can’t say this enough to my students; we never know what is going on in the lives of these students, all I know is it’s our job to love them.

1.22.2010

Fan Friday (Yes, it's back!)

The one and only: Taylor Henry
Taylor,

You have such a beautiful spirit. I have learned more about you in the past couple months than I have in the years I've known you. You have really grown into a young woman of God. It's so exciting to see your growth. I laugh hysterically when you do skits because you're so talented. Thank you so much for all of the hard work you put into the Jr. Leaderships Program. It may sound cheesy but the program wouldn't be what it is without YOU! Please be encourage and know that you are so gifted! I know that God is using you in tremendous ways and will continue to do so. Remember that you have so much to offer this world. Not just in the walls of children's ministry or youth ministry but to the WORLD! Always remember to look at yourself the way God sees you beautiful, intelligent, talented, gifted, etc. The list goes on. Love you Tay! AKA "Charlie" ;)

B.

1.21.2010

The Quiet Place

Last night I went to "The Quiet Place" in Sun City. Rex Crain speaks there about once a month. If I had to choose one word to describe this guy I would say he's incredibly gifted. I've never seen someone so on fire for God. So in tune with what God is trying to convey to His people. He's a motivational speaker who reminds you of what God wants for you. Last night was the second time I had ever been but this time I took my mom with me. She seemed really open to it so I thought, why not? I don't think it was a coincidence that everyone that I had originally planned with couldn't go. Leading me to ask my mom if she wanted to go with me.

Rex talked a lot about how we're in a new year and that this is the year of overcoming! He talked a lot about letting go of things from the past, and letting go of the people that hurt us. That they are things that weigh us down and don't allow God to pour NEW blessings onto our life because we're hanging on to the old. He talked about the analogy of the wineskin (which i LOVE) that He can't pour new wine into the old skin because it will just seep through the cracks. We need our new skin in order to have the blessings poured in and overflowing! Man, that SO spoke to me last night!

He also talked about our expectations of God. Our expectations are mirrors of how we see ourselves. God will meet our expectations where ever we are. So we should set our expectations high and believe that God WILL meet them! I was so happy that my mom got to hear that. I know that she thinks there isn't much more she can get or that there isn't anywhere else she could go. I can tell that he sparked something in her. I know that I need to continue praying that God speak to her, through me, through nights like last night etc. She said she wants to go again next month! Praise God, He is GOOD!

I highly encourage you to attend one of these nights, I truly believe it will change your life. "Nothing will change until your mind changes" that's what stuck out to me the most. If you want to go the next one it is on February 24th @7pm.

1.14.2010

January

Home- It's already the middle of January!? Where does the time go? This year has already been such a rollercoaster of emotions. New Years Eve was spent celebrating with old and new friends. Kicking off the year in good spirits. My little bacholorette pad is still doing well. I haven't been able to do much more decorating due to lack of time and creativity. When it's just me who has an opinion on what goes where I get a little too overcritical "Will that REALLY look good there?" and then there is no one around for me to ask haha. But that's how I like it. It's a catch 22. My neighbor just recently tried to burn the place down, the guy was cooking and went a little too oil happy. Luckily no major damage occurred and I got away safely.

Ministry- has been going really well. Ever since I made the switch to devoting my time solely to the Jr. Leadership Program I've really noticed a difference in me and in the program. I never realized how much time was being consumed while doing both ministrys. I'm finally at a point where I have nights off. It's honestly been really good for my sanity and my emotions. The program has been developing nicely, new leaders have been coming in and exisisting leaders are really stepping it up and trying new things. We run one service a weekend where the students deliver the message, pray for offering, welcome 1st time guest and everything inbetween. It's really exciting to be able to do something I'm really passionate about. Which is growing and mentoring students.

Social life- Seems to be getting busier and busier. Birthdays, weddings, birthdays, weddings, etc etc. Candice just got engaged on New Years Eve and has asked me to be her MOH. I'm beyond stoked! So excited for her and Geoff to start their new life together. So excited for bridal showers, bacholorette parties and family craziness! Other than wedding news, I feel like there is a birthday every week! Nicole's b day is coming up and I am so looking forward to celebrating her, she deserves a kick ass party with everyone that loves her.

God- Lastly and most definitely not least, there is God. My relationship with this guy seems to be getting more intense as the days go by. I finally feel like I can hear Him and not me. He has blessed in so many ways. I feel like He's on this phase of breaking me of my fears. Not a lot of people know this but I have a phobia if you will of freeways. Ever since I was 19 I don't drive freeways much anymore because I experienced a panic attack while in the fast track on the 91 where I blacked out for a second. It's definitely a VERY sensitive subject with me and not one that I vocalize to more than a handful of people. So if you're reading this, I trust that you won't think less of me and or belittle the situation. I'm really working on it, I just got on the freeway the other day for the first time in TWO years because Pastor Devland said that I had a deadline, if I didn't meet the deadline I would owe him $100 dollars. It wasn't for very long but I was proud of myself for not letting the enemy tell me that I'm weak and can't handle it. I'm not completely cured of it but it's a step in the right direction. I'm tired of feeling like I can't do something. If you know anything about me you know that I don't exactly give up easily. Feel free to keep me in your prayers as I break through the lies that enemy has been feeding me for six years. I know God wants to see me be rid of these unnatural fears, because they don't come from Him.