The Bacholorette

It's been almost a month since I moved out on my own, 4 weeks on Sunday! Amazing how time flys by. I must say that I love being out on my own. It's the little things that have been making me happy lately. Like having internet, a TV converter box where I can still watch basic cable, knowing that if I left food in the fridge it wont be thrown out before trash day, one of my favorites is that the temperature on my shower doesn't change because I'm the only one showering in there. I love being able to invite over whoever I want whenever I want.

So far I'm still adjusting to sleeping in a new place. I seem to wake up around the same time every night. Luckily it's easy for me to fall back asleep. I'm also adjusting to living more than one block away from my work. I've been late a total of maybe twice because of unplanned traffic. I finally figured out that I really do need to leave that extra 5 min earlier. Lunches are sometimes a pain because I used to go home everyday, granted I can still do that now BUT it's a waste of time and gas. So I'm getting used to planning lunches the day before. So far I've done a couple girls nights and a TV night and I loved it! I love being able to host and take care of my friends and family when they come over.

I haven't had any problems with my neighbors except when I woke up to a loud conversation outside my window at 3:30am by my Korean neighbor. I walked out with bedhead and pj's and asked him to pipe down, nicely of course. I also came home to a "present" outside my door the other day, it was dog poop. Not just dog poop, but stepped in dog poop. Apparently my neighbors have a dog and I was not aware. They cleaned it up that night so I didn't have to regulate.

With the changes I've made in my life recently between place to live and leadership I can honestly say that I am less stressed and really enjoying the couple extra free nights I get a week. It's given me the opportunity to do things I couldn't do before. Even if that thing is as small as taking a friend out for coffee. God's really been working on me, I know with this new transition of leadership he is going to continue teaching me lots of things. One of he biggest will be patience and learning to go with the flow when I need to. Bring it!

Till next time.


Jesus Feeds 2,500

Today South Hills Church had one of the most amazing outreaches that we have ever put together. We had a 30,000 lbs of food giveaway. We had enough food for 1,500 and with the help of God we fed 2,500. I can't tell you how many times I heard the story of Jesus feeding the 5,000 today. People kept bringing up the story because we shouldn't have had enough to feed that many people and it just felt like the food stacks weren't going down! It was amazing to see every family get what they needed. Not only did we give away 30,000 lbs of food but we had stations for clothing, haircuts and areas for kids to be able to connect with other kids and just have fun. The event was more than a success, it was a blessing.


Fan Friday

This young woman is amazing. From the outside if you don't know her you would probably think she was just a quiet kid who was shy. When you really get to know her she is this ocean of wisdom and beauty. Ok so that sounded really intense but seriously, she's one of the best people I know.


You are such a beautiful woman. Inside and out. You are one of the most caring people I know, such a big heart for others. You make me laugh when you get tired and dillusional and you really make me want to grow deeper in my relationship with God. When I hear about how you pray at school with your friends or how you were reading your bible and you found this and that it really challenges me even more to get my act together. You are an inspiration to me and to so many others.

I challenge you to walk boldly into your gifts, you were most definitely called by God to do amazing things. I'm glad to see that you are developing yourself more and more as these weeks and months go by. You are such an amazing support system to me, I wouldn't be able to do what I do without you. I'll always be here to listen to you when you need it, to counsel when you ask for it and to just make you laugh because your tired and crazy. I love you girl!



Where to Draw the Line?

Where do we draw the line between life, ministry, family, reaching out etc? This week I've been thinking a lot about how my days have already been feeling a little less packed. It's free'd me up to the point where I have been able to spend time with people that I normally wouldn't have had time for.

I was sitting at Starbucks last night with Jolene and so many of these thoughts just kept racing in my head about how we preach until we're blue in the face about being a family and yet a lot of us neglect our own families. Why? Because we justify it with telling ourselves that because we're reaching out to people who don't have families that it's ok to neglect our own?

I'm not saying that we all do this, but I know that I myself am guilty of this. I have a student who came to me the other day and told me how his family is upset with him because he spends all of his time at church and doesn't spend time with the family anymore. He was upset because he didn't understand how his family could be upset about him doing something meaningful and productive with his life. I understood how he felt because I was there just months ago. And now I finally see my families side of it.

Our family gets upset because they too want to spend time with their family. But we, or at least I turned that into them being selfish. They aren't being selfish, they want to spend time with you because they love you. Some people just don't communicate that the right way and then resentment comes in.

I bring all this up because this week has really shown me that I need to remember my friends and my family. To remember that I need to pour into them just as much as my students. I'm just happy that now I'll have more freedom to do that. And please hear my heart when I say that there is nothing wrong with pouring your time into your ministry and on loving those who really need it. But where do you draw the line between ministry being your life and ministry being your passion?


Life in November

This week has been such a rollercoaster of emotions. Where do I start? I'll start with moving day because it was at the beginning of the week. I officially moved into my new place on November 1st. I <3 my apartment. I love coming home and knowing where everything is or just being able to relax without worrying who might be in my living room. It's bittersweet. I love that I'm stretching myself and getting out of my comfort zone but I also miss the little things about the house. I miss the girls, I miss being two minutes from work, I miss having someone to talk to at night.

I baked brownies for my neighbors the other night, I figured it would be a great way to introduce myself and get to know the faces of the people around me. I know that I was placed there for a reason so I'm looking forward to building new relationships and strengthing old ones.

Aside from moving I've been making a few other big decisions in my life lately. I realized that I'm not Superwoman. Yes, I know it's shocking! I'm not Superwoman and I finally realized that I have too much going on. Most of you know that I am a leader in the Children's Ministry and in Remnant Next Gen Ministry. I found myself hardly having time for anything other than ministry. Don't get me wrong, I love what I do but I needed to evaluate what I'm doing.

I realized that by being in both ministries I was wearing myself very thin. I wasn't giving my full attention to either one and it was time to make a decision. After weeks of praying and weighing out the pros and cons I decided that I needed to take a step back from one or the other. I decided to step back from Remnant. It was one of the hardest decisions I've made in a long time and also one of the easist. I know that If I step back it means someone else gets to step up and develop their leadership skills.

I'm excited that now I get to really focus on the Jr. Leadership program and really pour into my leaders. I'm excited that now I won't be feeling like I'm a stress ball 24/7. I let my Jr. leaders know on Wednesday and they were excited as well. It means I get more time to build them up and really take our ministry to the next level. It also means I get some time to myself. I can't be my 100% for them if I'm not spiritually feeding myself.

I'm always amazed at how I think I have everything figured out and I'm happy and I'm comfortable and I don't think things will change and then God decides to change things up. I NEVER know where I am going to be... all I know is that wherever I am I'll be serving Him. A good friend told me this the other day and it stuck with me " It doesn't matter where you serve, so long as you're doing what you're called to do". Amen to that! Children's, Next Gen, Youth, etc. They're all labels. God asked me to love on people regardless of what label they fit into.