9.27.2008

Furnace RE:Launch

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Seriously, you do NOT want to miss out! I'm super excited about it, BE THERE!


-B

9.05.2008

Been a while...

I'm sitting at my desk at work... BORED. And not because I don't have anything to do but I just have this blah feeling today. I don't know if it's because I can think of a million and one things I can be doing instead of being here or the fact that I would just love to crawl back into bed and go to sleep. Regardless of the reason, I would like to snap out of it asap.

Phone call... hold please.

Aaaaand we're back.

Do you ever just sit and daydream? And get completely distracted? Well I do. I literally feel like I daydream all day every day. I'm wondering if that's even healthy? I work with therapist so I'll probably ask one of them. Lately I've been daydreaming about a few key things. My birthday is coming up and I've been told I have a couple surprises coming up. I absolutely LOVE surprises... BUT... they drive me crazy at the same time because I drive myself nuts trying to figure out what it could possibly be. I am an over analyzer for those who do not know me. So being told three months in advance that I have a surprise coming may be the death of me. Haha maybe not, but it'll be a close one.

I've been thinking a lot about my future and who or what is going to be in it. I think about school and I think "I wonder what's gonna happen when I'm done". I have absolutely no idea. It's exciting in a way because I have so much ahead of me that's just waiting to be discovered. I think about my job a lot too and I wonder if I am going to be processing paperwork forever just to pay the bills and do ministry on the side. And then I wonder... "is that ok?" Is it ok that my job takes up 70% of my time and then ministry gets the leftovers from when I'm not with family or friends. I don't really know if that's the real percentage but it's pretty close. Ideally I would love to be in ministry full time, I think if that's what God has for me then he'll make it happen. I also know that ministry isn't just at church. It can be right here where I work, God knows there are people here that need him. So what's stopping me from ministering to them? Rejection? Possibly. Can I really let these people go to hell because I'm afraid they'll say "no thanks" when I invite them to church. I guess it's time to get over myself and do something about it. It sounds harsh but I don't think we can ignore the fact that if these people don't accept Christ then we know exactly what's going to happen to them.

I had my first class sessions for this semester last night and the this new teacher said something that just really hit me. He said something along the lines of "The world is filled with licensed pastors, the world doesn't need another pastor. The world needs people who love God and love people" and at first I thought, ok guy... we're in this class to become certified pastors. In a way it made sense... you can be certified and schooled but if you don't have a heart and passion for people then you're in the wrong business. I don't even know if that made any sense. If it did then good and if not then don't mind me.

I didn't intend on this blog going the way it did, but I'm glad it did.

Till next time...

B.